21

This past weekend I celebrated my 21st birthday. It was actually yesterday, I had an awesome simple day. On Saturday my family treated me to PF Changs, then afterwards I met up with some friends at art walk. Afterwards, we ended up at steak and shake. And on Sunday was pride. I love pride, it always makes me so happy. I we t with Camille and Tiffany. It was fun I took some good pictures. And on the day of my actual birthday it was spent with booze and more booze. I got a kitchen aid mixer and a Michael Kors watch I wanted. Today, Nancy brought me my gift. It was a Polaroid 600 (: so happy. Now I'm at work, I'm so tired. I still need to do my homework when I get home and go visit my dad. I think I forgot to mention I got the job at Starbucks. This is my second week, it's been good. I can't complain so far.

My dad is so cute

So, my sister is getting married and dad dropped off a gift today for her. It's a beautiful stainless steel pots and pans set for her to have. He said it was for which ever daughter got married first. On the inside of the box said " The content of this box, belongs to my daughters" with his signature and the date being June 2004. I think this was around the time he was hospitalized and we didn't know whether or not he would be okay. Made me sad and happy to see it because it was sweet and thoughtful of him.

Easter Sunday

So I went to church today for the first time in a long time. I'm glad i did because before I left to church I felt like I might strangle someone. As my grandmother keeps aging, the more unbearable and unpleasent she's becoming.

The service was really nice and I felt like I made a real connection with God. I want to start going again every Sunday.

Realized that

I can't talk to poon very often. As much as I do enjoy talking to him, I can't help but get these crazy illusions in my head or get these creepy thoughts that I can't even say out loud. It's just going to make things awkward and I don't want to deal with it. as much as I do miss him at times, things should've stayed how they were, at a distance.

Can't risk thinking.

Let me get fully over you,

I'm falling asleep as I try to think things to say

Music is for lovers

I love music. All types of music. Music can alter my mood so easily, its like a switch. I don't know what the world would be like if there were no music. So I decided to make a list of my top 25 songs on my iPod that I currently love. 


1. Amy Winehouse - Valerie


2. Andrew Bird - Skin is, my


3. Ladytron - Seventeen


4. Best Coast - Our Deal


5.Stephen Marley - Now I know


6. Bon Iver - Skinny Love


7. Carpenters - Close to you 


8.Coldplay - Fix you


9. Cursive - From the Hips


10. The XX - You've got the love


11. Daft Punk - Something about us


12. The Smiths - There's a Light That Never Goes Out


13. Ellie Goulding/Bassnector - Lights


14. Hall and Oats- You make my dreams


15. The Smiths - This Charming Man


16. Kid Cudi - Cudi Zone


17. Air - Playground love


18. Little Dragon - Come home


19. M83 - Midnight City


20. Miike Snow - Cult Logic


21. MSTRKRFT - HeartBreaker


22. Nina Simone - Feeling Good


23. Paper Route - Dance on our Graves


24. Semisonic - Closing time


25. The Temper Trap - Sweet Desposition 




Attached is a link, to where you can listen to all these songs (:


http://grooveshark.com/#!/playlist/Current+Top+25/69144539

I cannot believe its already April

It is April 3rd already, that's crazy!!! before we know it, it'll be June, and then December and good bye to 2012.

As I write this I'm trying to recap the last 3 months. Thinking of things I said I wanted to accomplish in the new year. So far, I'm not doing great but I'm not doing horrible either. I still have 8 months to do what I need and want to do.

(:

Is it bad

That although I love my family, I really can't stand them. They're so infuriating, my god nothing is ever good enough or something is always a problem.

Today, I didn't drive to school. My sister dropped me off because my mom needed the car whatever that's fine. I called my sister to come get me but she couldn't so I was going to take the metro but she's so anal about taking it. It's annoying. She then talked me into asking Tiffany for a ride. I don't like asking people for favors doesn't matter how close we are I just don't like it. But I'm glad I did because I had fun. I ended up having lunch with camille, Ernesto and tiff at this all you can eat Japanese restaurant. So good, then we ended up driving around and doing nothing for 4 hours just talking stupid things. Around 4:30 I kind of wanted to go home because I felt bloated and tired my mom called and asked when I was coming I told her soon. Mind you I always have to lie because like I mentioned before she has a problem with everything. We ended up leaving at 5:30 and I got home like at 6:15. What I arrive to is my grandparents talking shit, on how I'm home late and that I was out the entire day, blah blah blah. I don't appreciate that because I seriously never go out, I am 20 years old and I can honestly say I don't do anything fun. My Fridays consist of my bed and Netflix, Saturday isn't any different. The main reason I don't go out is because I don't have a car anymore. And I won't get the car until next month, god knows when. And because I have been unemployed and like previously mentioned I don't like relying on people. So when for example I go out one weekend, in my parents eyes I can't go out the next. What is that? Or when I do decide I want to do something they talk me out of it, and it's not fair. Being home depresses me, and they're so selfish. So when they started with their crap I went to my room and started crying because I was so mad. My sisters can do whatever the fuck they want and not get told anything, I do it once and I'm horrible and fresh in my mothers words.

I feel bad about how I express myself about my family but then again not really because it's just the way they make me feel. I love them, but I don't like being around them too much. They put me in a horrible mood, and I'm always so laid back and passive.

Now, tomorrow is my sisters bachelorette party and the entire family is going to be there. Yay for me? Not really. I'm going to be annoyed and irritated like always.

I was only able to tell my dad and sisters I got the job. My mom, grandma and and grandpa took whatever joy I had in sharing my good news with them away.

Then people wonder why I'm so distant from my family.


By the way, guess what I'm doing...


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That's right!! I'm laying on my bed this Friday night doing nothing. What my family loves.

Jerks.